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So far this year-

The only reason some people get lost in thought is because it’s unfamiliar territory.
-Paul Fix

Or you let your thoughts direct where they want to go. 🙂

So far so good this year. My thoughts have stayed relatively on track and that translates into me sticking to my diet…mostly. 😛 I have managed to lose 5 lbs since starting a few weeks ago and a pant size. Yay me!

Although….I have strayed from my Research in favor of another topic that I’m curious about. And then there is the working on the back stories for my next attempt at NaNo later this year. I’m guessing I’ll get back to my Research later this year.

I have managed to talk to Lyo about maybe taking a weekend off in March or April (whenever Spring Break isn’t) for our vacation down south. And here’s a shock- he actually agreed to go. 😀 Okay so not much of a shock, but it is encouraging.

I have yet to go out to the range with my bow or my pistol, but then again even when the weather is sunny it is freezing outside. We barely get out of the 30s before noon. So I may have to wait a bit on that.

I have started to become a little more active on FB and Google+ over the last month as well. 🙂 Not really doing much other than liking or posting random quotes or happy faces, but it is a step in the right direction as far as keeping in touch with a few people.

It’s how I found out about my nephew’s pneumonia and the fact that he’s had other respiratory problems in the past. ‘Cause you know my sister can’t pick up a phone and talk to me. Seeing how it is my fault that family is such a mess. 😦 I’m not sure if I’m for or against her posting information like that on FB, but…I guess at least it keeps me in touch in a round about way. Besides…that’s how a few family members found out that Lyo and I got married too. 😀

So all in all…I’d say not a bad start to the year. I am going to add one more thing to my list though.

For one month (I’m not sure when) I will post every day. It may not be more than a quote or a comment, but it will be something. 🙂 I’ll let you know when I plan to start that as soon as I know. 😀


Art and Me

Before you begin a thing, remind yourself that difficulties and delays quite impossible to foresee are ahead. If you could see them clearly, naturally you could do a great deal to get rid of them but you can’t. You can only see one thing clearly and that is your goal. Form a mental vision of that and cling to it through thick and thin. –Kathleen Norris


Or, as it is often in my case, put the whole mess aside until it becomes clear what you are trying to accomplish. Sometimes it takes awhile to achieve something and other times it seems that Luck, Fate, Destiny or any host of gods/goddesses decides to take a hand in what direction you go. I’ve learned the hard way (a few times :)) that trying to force something is not the way to give it life. For me this applies to work, hobbies, relationships and living in general.

One of my proudest moments was when I had an art showing at a local coffee shop. I think there was a grand total of 5-7 paintings that ended up going on the wall for a month. I got a lot of positive feedback (even one that said I should try to sell them) and encouragement to paint again.

I loved it.

More importantly I loved the release it gave me. This was at a point in my life where I had to make a choice. Go on hating where I had come from and maybe run away to another city where I didn’t have to deal with the people who were involved. Or let go of the hate and make my way to a different ME, one that didn’t have to care what had happened in the past- I couldn’t change it anyways. It had helped shape me, but it didn’t have any power over me if I didn’t want it to.

All that mattered was my opinion.

I was so excited about that show that I immediately signed up for another one the following year. I thought I could pull together another series that this time had little or nothing to do with myself closely. But that venture failed. I learned that I couldn’t force myself to keep myself out of my art work. And as time grew shorter and my opening was little more than months away I realized that as far as painting went. I had said what I needed to say.

But art wasn’t quite done with me just yet. In fact it was an unfinished piece that began to push me toward my Research project this year and toward another spurt of growth for me. 🙂

I may not cling to goals through thick and thin but sometimes I think that it might be better that way. It’s worked so far. 😀

Almost back to writing

I am not the most exciting person these days. Trying frantically to get things done before winter hits in full force means that I don’t often have time to sit back and write anything useful/funny/insightful…or anything really.

But I have managed to stumble across a few things that have I think are interesting.

First is Powell Books’ new Espresso Book Machine ( which if you are like me- dying to see something you’ve done in print, but know that it isn’t quite ‘there’ for mass production (or even having someone consider it for production)- this is worth the trip to Portland alone. I’m having a hard time deciding what (if anything) I can put together for a book and get it over there. 😀 I’ll have to wait until I’m not running around though. Hopefully by then I’ll have something put together.

My research project is slow going, but again that is probably my fault. I get distracted and go off on another line all together. Such as the meaning of a symbol or myths in the region that are like  shiny objects that I can’t ignore. This would be one of the major reasons why I can’t have a job that is strictly one thing at a time in the same order all the time. I go off and do something else. 🙂 A bad trait for research, but I find out all sorts of fun things.

This trait also gets really bad when there are differing opinions about my topic. Some will say X while other will include W and Z in the same category- but when you look at the language it clearly isn’t. But then I think maybe they do belong in the same category so I have to find out for sure.

Some would think that was being thorough…I call it trying to be perfect in an imperfect field. Seriously- I’m dealing with Myths that have changed from region to region and throughout time as a well. Do I actually expect to have a complete list and cross reference that encompasses a world’s history on the subject?

Sadly the answer is yes and no. I do, but when I get bogged down in the details I have to remember that I’m not trying to go THAT far. I wish myself  luck every day.

My interest of late has been classical music. Ever since I’ve gotten my library finally set up to the point where it is useful I’ve been leaning toward the classical/instrumental side of music. For those that know about my taste in music this isn’t that big of surprise- but still something to be chuckled about. ~cough-Lyo-cough~ 🙂 But when I read for enjoyment or research I like to have something in the background that is overly loud and not distracting.

Though I have’t quite yet fallen into the Opera trap yet- I tend to think I’m getting close though. 😛 After all it IS only a few steps further.

And in that pursuit of mine I’ve add which I would like you to note also has a Jazz twin. So I’m not just listening to classical all day.

Actually I find that listening to instrumental music (not just classical) I tend to think in more solid ways. Instead of starting a line of thought and having it disappear into the ether a moment later I can actually follow it for  a bit. Sometimes to a good place and sometimes to a place that no mind should ever wander (that’s how I usually find my next Search though so I don’t know maybe a mind should wander out there occasionally :D).

Another change in my habits is that I’ve begun using V2 Cigarettes (  instead of Camels. For those that don’t know V2 is nicotine in water that forms a vapor when inhaling. None of the tar that generally causes the breathing problems. And despite some ads and personal stories about using them to quit smoking (all the vapor brands seem to have those in one way or another) the products are not designed to help a smoker quit (sorry to burst that bubble).  You could if you wanted to, but I don’t think that it would work for me.

In any event my story with them is that the store next to my work started selling the disposable kind from another company. What I like about it was that there were flavors that are kind of sweet in a good way. However I will warn you to stay away from the fruit ones unless you REALLY REALLY like cough syrup from the 1980s. Yeck!!!

Those disposables also lasted the same amount of time as two packs of cigarettes with me for only $10! Where as Camels and other cigarettes were reaching $6.50 in some shops (including the store next to me). So an all around good deal. Then the store started to run out of my flavors. I bought up as much as I could, but it was a long time between refills. So I started to look on line for a supplier. V2 was the best bet and so far I’m very happy with them. And I’ve saved a bit of cash too. 😀

But here’s the part I find funny. When I was running out of the disposable ones and V2 hadn’t arrived yet (never ever go flat rate. Pay the 1.50 more and get it in 1/2 the time) I tried to smoke a Camel.

My gods! What a horrible, disgusting, piece of shit wrapped in menthol hell (I really hate menthol/mint) that I had ever had the unfortunate luck to encounter. That was back in September. I haven’t tried it again since. ~shudders at the memory~ Really bad.

And that has been what I’ve been up to. Well that and throw in a hunting trip, a trip north to Washington, a rainy trip South, and getting married on the 3rd….

I may get things to slow down in December, but I wouldn’t hold my breath if I were you. 🙂

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