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Man 1:ย “Shall I or shan’t I? Should I or shouldn’t I?”

Man 2:ย “Is he or isn’t he?”

(Points to anyone who knows what TV show that is from.)

It’s been that kind of day and in truth the whole weekend seems to have gone that way. Lots of driving mixed in with stormy weather and a rock hard bed to sleep in. Actually the storm was the one of the better parts of the weekend.

I’ve always enjoyed watching storms. The more violent the better. It is a release of a kind for me. Pent up frustrations, anger, sadness, and anything else I care to throw out into the wind and rain. ย Everything is thrown out and I let the storm rage for me.

I even threw my joy, love, and satisfaction into storms.

Emotions were never meant to be negative or positive it was just how I interpreted them. I could keep them or let them go to make room for the new ones waiting to come in.

Some lessons are like a kiss, and some are like my storms.


Lesson Learned… sort of…

The beginning is always today.-Mary Wollstonecraft Shelley

I am officially naming this year the WTF Year. Very little has gone right this year and the surprises haven’t been all that good. ๐Ÿ˜› But I’d like to think that I’ve managed to keep some sort of Balance in the mix.

This year has been a really big test of my theory of Balance, and though I have let a lot of my practice slide I’m pleased to say that yes Balance is still my main belief. All the yelling, tears, laughter, and happy memories that I’m trying to uncover are still keeping me sane.

Which come to think about it with everything else falling apart is still pretty good. ๐Ÿ˜‰


So I will give myself a pat on the back and plod on to tomorrow. Which hopefully will bring some sort of good news for Lyo and in turn me. ๐Ÿ˜€

Starting again….

I search for calm, sweet spirit. Taurus Dragon come! Patience and stability must be apart of my life. Teach me great Dragon I would be practical, organized. Show me the way emerald Dragon.


I’m going to need Taurus’ help quite a bit during my time with him. ~wry smile~ Lyo is going to put an application in for a new position that may cause us to move. I’m planning a trip to Yellowstone for next year (which I’m nervous if I’ll be able to pull that off). And I’m very very VERY nervous if I’ll be able to find a new job if we go.

Not to mention that remaining calm has never been a strong suit. Nor has being stubborn. I’m more than willing to compromise in tough situations…in fact most of the time I won’t even state an opinion about something unless asked directly. Being stubborn is something I do…undercover. ~amused~

So I guess…Taurus has much to help me with.

Walking through the Zodiac

I’ve decided that since I’ve been a little lax in my studies and life in general I would go back to this. A trip through the zodiac according to the signs and their times. Sounds a little like a year and a day type thing, but if I can keep up with it I will be better for it. Especially since I have never done this before. ๐Ÿ™‚

So the goal is to make as many entries as I can, whenever I can, and use the meditations from Dancing with Dragons as a jumping off point. Lets see how this goes….

“Positive outlook I want in my life,
Warm thoughts and firm persistence,
I want to be generous, outgoing to all,
For these I need your assistance.”

I am not a very positive person nor is my persistence very firm. This could be harder than most things I’ve had to work on in the past, but I am willing to give it a shot. So how do I go about getting that positive outlook in life? The meditation is a great place to start, but I don’t think that I can leave it at that. Magick on its own is not going to change me…I need to put the effort into changing myself. And that is something I can do. I’ve done it in the past.

Everyone has to one degree or another. Moving on after someone dies is one form of changing, but perhaps the most common is daily changes that most people don’t notice right away. It becomes habit to alter oneself in subtle ways I would guess. So for me, changing from a neutral/negative outlook on my day is going to take some practice. I would choose to start this at the beginning of the work week. ๐Ÿ™‚

No, really it is a good thing. If I am to change then I need to begin rather than putting it off for another day.

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