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Saying one thing and doing the other

A person who trusts no one can’t be trusted.Jerome Blattner

The above statement is very true. I should know because I don’t trust people in general. We are stupid creatures who have forgotten that we are indeed just another creature on this planet. Well, that and 7 out of 10 times if I trust someone it comes back to bite me in the ass. Sad, but true.

Also I know that I cannot be trusted.

Example (from years and years ago)- Getting off work one night I find what looks to be $5 on the ground between my car and the next. I look around, pick it up, get in my car and drive away. I head down to the beach to have a few drinks and discover it isn’t a 5, it’s a $20… alot of $20s. A few weeks later (after holding onto the money for a bit then spending it) I discover that one of the local bar flies has dropped the money. I keep my mouth shut.

I’m not exactly ashamed of it nor am I proud of the fact either. It is was it is. I stole money that someone dropped. And if I really practiced what I preach about responsibility then I should probably turn myself in.

Luckily at that point in time I didn’t have my pet theory. Nor does my pet theory actually require me to confess my sins without being asked directly. πŸ˜› Why?

Because no one is 100% honest 100% of the time.

Try it for yourself. Go one hour, one day, one afternoon of not lying. No white lies. No taking that extra bit of change from the store. No cutting in line when the other person has to run to get something they forgot. No holding back the son of a bitch that you wanted to say to the idiot who nearly ran over your foot int he parking lot.

None of it.

I made it all of 2 minutes before I cracked. And that was only because no one else was in the room. πŸ˜›

The world is a cruel place. Better learn to lie with the best of them. πŸ˜€


If it isn’t broken…

A positive attitude may not solve all your problems, but it will annoy enough people to make it worth the effort.
Herm Albright

Well I haven’t doneΒ that for a while. Get drunk. Sit out under the darkening sky. Listen to Cruxshadows for hours on end. I’d say my night started out pretty well, and the after dark show was pretty good too. πŸ˜‰ Peanut Butter Twix ladies, they can do wonders. The next miracle drug.

Though I do think Lyo was a bit pissed off at me last night for drinking so much. Thanks the gods he didn’t know about the other drinks I had before he got home. Life wouldn’t have been very fun if he had. ~shrugs~ He probably suspects, but that doesn’t mean anything without proof. Which being the devious lying bitch that I am- I make sure there isn’t evidence of anything left behind. πŸ˜›

Yes I know this is aΒ bad thing. Lying to my Mate.

But every relationship needs lies.

They really do. If you didn’t lie to the ones you love you’d never get anything done that you want to get done. Seriously. It could be a surprise party for their birthday to not telling them that a certain position in bed hurts a bit. Lying is a necessity in relationships.

I just happen to draw the line at certain things. But even that line can get pushed back if at the time it seems worth it. πŸ™‚

Again- I know it isΒ bad.Β But that is how my life works. And to be honest- my life works pretty damn well. πŸ˜€

For the time being anyways. πŸ˜›

Let lies be

Partying is such sweet sorrow.
-Robert Byrne

When are you honest? When does being honest hurt your chances at a job/relationship/etc?

There really isn’t a good answer if you think of yourself as an honest person in the traditional sense of honor (meaning being good/noble/etc.). Either you admit to lying a touch (or more) or you are willing to risk yourself by answering a question completely honest.

Now I know where I fall on that scale. It depends on the person but I will do both…just not at the same time. Like with Buck when he asked me about my old job. I liked it. I had fun with it. And I got fired for violating the confidential information clause in my contract. (That was the reason The Lady gave. I still don’t know what the hell I did to violate it.)

Now normally if the person was a potential employer I wouldn’t tell them about the fired bit. I would simply say that I was let go. But Buck and JJ have been dealing with The Lady’s bad graces longer than I have so I wasn’t all that concerned about tell him. Β Even if he is a potential employer.

Then during the nightly entertainment with Lyo. He teases me and asks if I’ve ever lied to him. And I said not that I can remember. Not the best answer in the world, but an honest one. And gods am I glad my memory only goes back a week or two before it makes a leap to my teen years. πŸ˜€

See I do believe in being honest. Just not all the time. πŸ˜› And definitely not all the time. Gods know what kind of trouble I could get into with an attitude like that. Though I did have it at one time. ~shudders~ Luckily I’m lazy and it only lasted a day or two. Sometimes it is just better to let the lie be the truth for some people.


It may be wrong, but it’ll be alright

Good study habits, logical, and practical are all traits of this sign. Efficiency, neatness are good things to have. I desire these traits as you know. Help me Virgo to learn and grow.

I’ve been learning quite a bit since this new phase has begun in my life. Though perhaps not in the direction I thought this journey would take me. πŸ™‚Β  Which is completely fine with me. This is one of the reasons I wanted to take this trip through the zodiac. To learn new things, maybe even change a few things about my life. But gods above and below you would think I would have learned by now to be careful about what I ask for. πŸ™‚

In this particular case I am having to learn that perhaps I have been too lax I practicing some of my less favorable skills. We all have them, but for the most part we ignore them…or try to at least. Yes, I am talking about the ‘dark’ side of our personalities. The place we turn to when we lie or worse. I’m not a saint by any stretch of the imagination. Hell, I’ve been known to be the liar and cheat some have claimed me to be. Which is fine. But it seems I have lost some of that ability. Or maybe that is just my perception of how this last week has gone.

You see I made a promise to someone that I would not drink while they are not there. But here’s the catch. Most of the people I know have said that they can never tell when I’ve had a drink or two…or six. (Yes, I am an alcoholic, but lets stay on track here. I function just fine, thank you.) And some of these people have seen me drink a lot. Granted I didn’t live with them or spend nearly every free moment with them, but I did spend quite a bit of time with them. So how the bloody hell is it that my Mate can tell?

This is where I have been lax. In concealing my secrets from him. And that disturbs me. A lot.

So I will give this a month before I break a promise and see if I can’t slip in a drink or two. That should give me plenty of time to brush up on my skills again. πŸ™‚

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