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How can you tell?

An insincere and evil friend is more to be feared than a wild beast; a wild beast may wound your body, but an evil friend will wound your mind.

The lines between who is a friend and who is merely an acquaintance is often blurred in my world. For me friends are people I trust with my mundane life slightly more than those I just met. Though give someone I just met an hour or two and I’ll share almost the same stories.

But how do I know who to trust?

That is a question that isn’t nearly in my mind enough of the time. In fact I’m actually quite trusting of people I met face to face (or in a setting where I am comfortable). It is the general public that I tend to think of as Characterly Challenged. 😛

My distrusting nature is often for people that I have yet to interact with or have seen/heard them do things opposite of what they said they were going to do. Or people who are generally pissed off at the world. (Think Switch)

But is it wrong to be so distrusting then trust someone a little bit before you really get to know them? What is the right level of trust for someone I’ve just met?

Unfortunately there is no hard and fast rule that I can rely on to tell me. It seems that instinct rather than logic plays the biggest rule. Which is why I guess a person can be so hurt over an friend’s betrayal.

We see logic fail every day (or at least I do), but our instincts are supposed to be reliable. They are supposed to unshakable. I don’t know why they are supposed to be that way but they are. At least that is how it feels when my instincts are wrong about someone.

I am getting better at accepting that my instincts aren’t always correct in the human world. But put me out in the middle of no where…I think I’ll do just fine. 🙂


The things we envy

I have too much respect for the idea of God to make it responsible for such an absurd world.  -Georges Duhamel

Well given everything…I would say that this isn’t a bad day. I’ve definitely had worse. And in fact aside from a few bumps in the road…I’d say not bad at all. 🙂

I would say that I’m taking this whole thing well, but in all honesty I’m probably just waiting for the other anvil to drop. Right now I’m just doing small work to keep me busy until I can get hired, but it is enough…or at least I hope so. We really haven’ talked about what kind of money I’ll be making and that always leaves me a little worried.

But I’m doing my best to be the same ME I was before I got accused of passing along company secrets. Or whatever the hell they say I’m doing. But now I know how that atmosphere of theirs got to be as toxic as it is.

You’re not allowed to even be on friendly terms with people who leave the office. Which is a shame. But oh well. 😛 I don’t have to talk to them. Not even the one I supply V2 to. But I’ll give it a shot because I told JonBoy I would.

JJ’s new office is SWEET! They have a real reception area. A real receptionist desk. And more than one bathroom! (Yes that does deserve a mention.) I love the colors. I love the wood floor. And honestly there is a ton of space that they haven’t gotten around to using yet. 😀 It is really really nice.

I’m going to be envious if anyone else gets that job when it comes up.

Now all I have to do is get the equipment in working order and we’ll see where I end up.

Cast of Characters Pt. 1

Art, like morality, consists of drawing the line somewhere.
-G. K. Chesterton

So I thought I would introduce you to all the people in my life that I consider important since they are part of the reason for my writing here. That I need someplace to keep track of what names I’ve given them online. 😀

I’ve divided the people up into Pack and Friends. Pack are closer than friends and better than the family you grew up with. Friends are just about anyone else who I am somewhat close to, but only partly.

First up my Pack:

  • Lyo (aka: My Mate, Mine, Hubby, Husband) : He is a big teddy bear when it comes to just about anything. We do have our moments, but all in all- I got a good deal when we hooked up. And I hope I show that to him every day. 🙂
  • Jax (1979 – 2009): Even though she gone Jax is still one of the biggest influences in my life. She and I knew each other from our teen years and even after some rocky reconnects we managed to stay close. 🙂 I still think about her everyday. I don’t keep in touch with the rest of her Pack as often as I would like, but for the past 3 years I haven’t been online much… In any event- those in her Pack that I know pretty well (I think) are Cate, Max, Kim,Torian, Kadin and Tianna. They show up here occasionally too.
  • Matt: Out of all the people I’ve met through Jax’s Pack Matt is the one I’ve kept in touch with most frequently. I always kind of picture him as a younger brother that I love hanging out with to either annoy, torment, or laugh with. Mostly all of them. 😀

Now for my friends-

  • JJ: I’ve worked with JJ for awhile now. Funny, smart, and extremely honest about most things. JJ can be a bit of sneak at times (okay maybe a lot of the time), but that is what makes working with JJ so fun. You never know what’s coming up.
  • Switch: Switch is…well a light switch. You never know if it is going to be a good day and have Talkative Switch in or  if it’s one of the bad days and Bitchy Switch or Snarky Switch is coming in. Debate Switch can be fun since I enjoy crushing preconceptions on just about anything if I can help it. And Debate Switch gets it going every time. 🙂 Also Switch has this habit of raising her voice an octave or two when she thinks your not listening to what she says…or if she disagrees with you. Annoying but I try to keep remember she isn’t really yelling.
  • JonBoy: Oh, where to start with Jonnie? The only person I’ve seen more disorganized and clutter prone was Jax and she had good reason to be. JonBoy is just everywhere. He can’t help it or so it seems. And I do take pity on those that can’t understand computers. I’m not an expert, but I’m pretty good at the level I am at. JonBoy can’t even get a computer powered on without a button that says start. Gods know why someone gave him a Windows 8 laptop, but I doubt he’s used it more than twice since I set it up for him. ~sighs~
  • Lyssa: Someone I met during NaNo. She is fun and quirky (yellow galoshes) and a writer. She has lots of stories to tell about the places she’s been.
  • Mira: Another NaNo person who is as much a coffee hound as I am. She writes professionally which I would love to do, but it makes hanging out with her sometimes hard to do. That and the fact that she lives 3 hours away.
  • Muppet: Here is another of my wayward cases. Although she does have some skills with a computer it mainly focuses on searches and emails. Not bad. She reminds me of an innocent kid who is stepping out into the real world for the first time. Except in Muppet’s case she’s been out there before. I worry about her, but aside from helping her out with a few odds and ends we aren’t really that close so I can’t really give her advice. That and she is a huge history buff. So Muppet and Lyo get along great. 🙂

All of these people have some sort of impact on my life…and its been a good thing. I’ve left out the people I don’t like because honestly….I don’t feel like drudging up the old arguments and feelings. Today is about celebrating the people that I like. And while this list isn’t a complete one its the best I can do for now. 🙂

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