Living in a Dream

Sometimes I just think too much

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Let me try again…

Mental Quickness, Versatile ways; These I ask to fill my days. Communication skills so strong, Twin Dragons show me right from wrong.”

Well, Taurus was interesting. Busy with a bit of drama in my life, but interesting none the less. Luckily I’m not all THAT far behind in my studies.

So let me see what has been going on.

Lyo was interviewed for a new job which would have caused us to move. He didn’t get it which has turned out to be a much better idea than a new job.

Work for myself has been going well.

I’ve started to put together material for a book. Kind of a combination of book review, commentary and my own interpretation of scientific fact. It means a lot of work and not a lot of time spent on the forums or emailing, or actually working on anything else until I get the material together. Though the plan is to get all of information I need by the end of June.

That is going to compete with my saving for my anniversary trip next year of course. I’m trying to get up enough money to go to Yellowstone next August/September with Lyo next year. ~crosses fingers~ We’ll see if I can pull it off. Normally something like the New Job issue will get in the way. But I think I’ll make it. ~grins~

So yeah….communication is going to be a big factor this time around. Also there is going to be a bit of a change here. I’m going to try to post at least once a week about my time in the Zodiac. I know I was going to post daily, but I’m finding that time is getting short. We’ll see how the weekly posting goes.

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My Falcon

“I seek true intuition and Dreams, Insight to show a clear future path. Let my escapes into daydreams be fruitful, Let the psychic teach me compassion. Help me to remain stable on the illusive path of the spirtiual.”

Well the surgery went well and recovery seems to be on track. My little falcon is annoyed with being laid up and dependent on me to do things for him, but I keep telling him that it is my job to see that he is taken care of. An odd thing for a man who has always taken care of himself I know, but it is nice to spoil him a bit. ~wry grin~ Besides it IS my job. One that I signed up for and gladly do.

Which I guess makes me unique in some way. I don’t get that. A Mate/Wife/Husband should want to take care of their other half. It isn’t something that you should be able to turn away from or pass off onto a stranger/other person. Being responsible for their mental health is not part of that deal (just to clarify) but wanting to see your other self be happy  and well should be a big part of a relationship in my opinnion.

I remember watching my grandparents one time spend 30 minutes arguing what was for dinner by saying, “I don’t know…what do you want?”  At that time neither one was going to be cooking dinner (I was taking care of them), but what stood out was that was the first argument that I had ever seen them have. While in contrast the fights between my parents were….more centered on who could hurt who the most with words. 

That contrast drew a big line in how I handle relationships. If I am going to be with someone I want them to be safe, happy, and well. I will do what I can to see that they are those things. But I won’t give up who I am for them to be that way. If they want me to change too much or change who I am at my core then I will walk.

I’m glad that I found my falcon because he seems to have the same thought. We take care of each other. We don’t change who we are for the other and we accept them as is.

And after we make it through this….who knows….life is just plain fun when you don’t plan. ~grins~

Pisces Begining

“I seek true intuition and Dreams, Insight to show a clear future path. Let my escapes into daydreams be fruitful, Let the psychic teach me compassion. Help me to remain stable on the illusive path of the spirtiual.”

As always I wonder what this new sign will teach me in our time together. I’m not sure what I’ll learn, but I know it’ll be an experience. ~wry grin~ Especially with everything that seems to have started this month. And of course in the coming time with Pisces there is much going on. Starting tomorrow Lyo will be in surgery then recovery. I have dentist and  eye doctor appointment later this month and the end of March. Not to mention I am still experimenting with treatments for my back.

Speaking of whch I think I’ve stumbled onto an enhanced treatment. It builds on what I was already doing- St. John’s Wort- by adding in Lavender and Clove oils. Of course I now smell like someone is baking all the time, but I can sit up right for longer than 2 minutes. The downside is that you do have reapply it every few hours, but it is doable.

As for my diet….it is still going strong. I’m slowly adding in the Y-scores into my Calorie counter (very slowly) but it is working out like I thought it would. I do have that chart if anyone is interested. And at last count I was down to 14 lbs to my goal weight. ~big grin~

All in all….Aquarius was good to me and Pisces is looking to be a fun time as well.

Odd weekend….

“Inventiveness and insight deep, Bring to me while I sleep. Self-expression feeds the soul, Wise Dragon help me find a richer goal.”

Yesterday was totally unexpected…Lyo decided to take me to the biggest shopping center on the coast. But what was really sweet was he bought me a ring from Zales. ~smiles~ I hadn’t planned on actually going in there, but I was curious as to what they had and ended up with my birthstone set in white gold.

Then we ended up at the casino for lunch and despite totally pigging out (2 plates of food, 1 cup of chowder, and 2 desserts) I did not gain weight. Yippeee! I know that I can’t do that every day, but oooohhhh…it was sooo good. I’ve always viewed an all you can eat buffet as a challenge. If I can eat the most spendy items a couple of times then the price was worth it. ~wry grin~ And I say I’m not competetive. ~chuckles~

But of course the downside is….I’m paying for all the traveling and carrying heavy items around. I can hardly move without pain today. ~sighs~ I need to find my back brace…..

Weekend….

“Inventivness and insight deep, Bring to me while I sleep. Self-expression feeds the soul, Wise Dragon help me find a richer goal.”

I’m kind of excited today. It may be the first time Lyo and I can take the bikes out to the park for a ride around the trails. Don’t get me wrong- going around the block is okay, but I want to push myself and get in a longer ride. We’ll have to wait and see what the weather does though. Which in this neck of the woods it can change in a heart beat. ~laughs~

I’m also trying to clean up the house so that when he has his surgery the house won’t cause an infection. ~sighs~ And of course who hasn’t done house cleaing since they got a new job? ~raises hand~ That would be me. ~laughs~

Now I need to get my nerve to cooperate.

and of course I’ve still got to work on my diet spreadsheet.

Too much stuff to do and not enough time to do it. ~wry grin~

Dreams and where they come from

“Inventivness and insight deep, Bring to me while I sleep. Self-expression feeds the soul, Wise Dragon help me find a richer goal.”

Well no richer goals have come to mind just yet. ~wry grin~ But I will say that my dreams have been entertaining thus far. ~chuckles~ Sometimes I wonder what (if anything) my mind is trying to sort out while I sleep. And sometimes the meaning is very clear. Such as earlier this morning I was dreaming about emergency preparedness (sp?) and how ready I was for a disaster or rather how I think everyone else is doing at it. You see most everyone who gets into preparing an emergency pack has one at home and perhaps their car will carry some light supplies, but I would say that is not the norm….the car bit. And very few plan for an emergency where they are not at home or in their own car. And that was pretty much my concern. Especially since I take public transportation to work and back.

So I can understand where my mind picked up that train of thought, but some of the other ones….I’m never sure about. ~laughs~ Maybe after I go through the Zodiac I will concentrate on dream interpretation.  But for right now I’ll just sit back and enjoy what my dreams bring me. Even if they get interupted by the alarm in the morning. ~1/2 smile~

Work and the things we do to avoid it.

“Inventiveness  and insight deep, Bring to me while I sleep. Self-expression feeds the soul, Wise Dragon help me find a richer goal.”

This is going to be an interesting month. And I’m not sure if it is good or bad yet. ~wry grin~ On one hand Lyo goes back in for surgery and the only thing I can think about is if he stays for the night I might not be sober by the time I have to be at work. Well, sober enough to drive, but definetly not feeling 100%. ~amused~ It will be the first time in a month or two that I’ve had anything to drink without him there. Damn the promise. ~chuckles~

In any event….today is all about working on simplifing my diet. It isn’t going to change all that much. Since I’m having trouble keeping track on a daily basis I’m going to try to work out an average calorie for food groups with pointers on which ones are actually lower than the average I come up with. I will also be simplifing the Y-scores too- even though the system is pretty simple on its own. But not daily simple if you don’t pay attention to it…like me. ~wry grin~

Wish me luck…this is going to be an interesting day.

Lazy Day

“Inventiveness and insight deep, Bring to me while I sleep. Self-expression feeds the soul, Wise Dragon help me find a richer goal.”

It took me awhile but I finally got around to using a keyboard with my Thrive tablet. And I’ve got to say…I’m a silly girl for waiting for so long. ~wry grin~ Don’t ge me wrong the virtual keyboard is pretty good, but the amount of writing I do requires a keyboard. Which of course means I’m going to need another SD card sooner rather than later. ~laughs~

So another resolution or goal for this year is write/think about the Pagan holidays from my perspective. We all know that I take what I want and then spin it to my tastes. Hell, I think we all do that for one thing or another. And I never claimed to be that different. ~laughs~

So in any event…I’ll try to post something on the holidays that explains my POV and how I came about that particular thought/belief/theory. I can’t guarentee that it will be anything remotely coherent depending on the day…but I will try. ~smiles~

In the mean time….

my diet is working out pretty well. I’m with in 19 lbs of my goal weight (which I haven’t seen since….Jr Hight School…maybe). And the next bit is to find an excerise program that I might actually stick with. Not very likely as I’m kind of really bad about excerising with anyone looking so it could be a challenge to find the time. Unless it is a program that is not overyly excerise like. ~thinking~

I’ll figure it out…just a little time…..

Aquarius 1

“Inventiveness and insight deep, Bring to me while I sleep. Self-expression feeds the soul, Help me find a richer goal.”

Here is a sign that I can understand…or at least I think so. I’m sure this time will prove me wrong on some level. Still…given everything that is going on these days- Lyo and I in general, work, my studies, and of course working on my diet plan.

Oh, I probably forgot to tell you about that. And in actually fits in with the today’s focus (or at least what I hope is the focus)…inventiveness.

Last year I started Weight Watchers and that went great until I got within 20 lbs of my goal. Sure I fell off the wagon a few times during that 6-8 month period, but I really can’t say it was anything that WW caused. It was just laziness on my part…along with not having access to my Trackers for a while. ~shrugs~ But all in all it is a decent system for those of us who are not diet friendly. ~smiles~

In any event I had to give it up when I switched to my new job since my activities went way down along with my paycheck. Ever since then I’ve been trying to find a new system that would work for me. Points really don’t work when you don’t have access to the full picture of WW.

Enter TCM…or at least a very butchered/Western version. I take the very basic principle of Yin Yang and apply it to food as well as myself. Thank the gods I found a book (I’ll find the author later) that gives a very basic foundation of a Chinese diet. And by basic I mean BASIC. TCM is highly complex for someone who has no background in it, but the principles are fairly easy to understand. And of course I did tweak it a bit to fit into my…overly processed diet. ~wry grin~ What I did boils down to which foods are Yin, and which ones are Yang. There are lists out there that can tell you though some are not nearly as developed as I would like. I needed the +/- versions, not just if they were Yin or Yang (or slightly Yin/Yang).

Once I put together that chart (thanks to the book I will name later and a few websites) I am able to break foods down into their individual parts to determine their Y-score. Add to that a count of how many calories I can have in a day to keep losing 1 lb a week…and I have a very easy option friendly diet. ~grins~

Of course it is still in the testing phase. I’ve only been at this for a day so far but it seems to be one I can easily follow. I just have to remember to count. ~wry grin/laughs~

I would call this inventive. And it is something I enjoy doing….making a system that works. It is one of the reasons I love my belief system. It combines aspects of many different beliefs with the single goal of creating a Balance in the world. Not an extreme.

Ever get the impression I just do things my own way? ~laughs~

To begin…

“The sound of money stirs ambition. To be practical and persist, I would be practical and efficient that my life be full and blessed.”

Well so much for my plans for writing everyday. ~wry grin~ I think I’ve made that plan before and failed. So the revised plan is to write more frequently. Just don’t hold your breath for it to be true. I have a habit of making that mistake. ~laughs~

Onward then.

Capricorn…ah, another sign I have difficulty understanding. (Not to mention that it is almost over. ~sighs~) But by focusing on the positive this time around I think I will come to a better appreciation of the sign. In my tradition this is an Earth sign. Which makes sense when you look at the mediation above. I’m focusing on the ambition bit today.

It isn’t so much about money as it is about having ambition. According to the dictionary (Merriam-Webster) ambition is defined as 1. a : an ardent desire for rank, fame, or power b : desire to achieve a particular end. I choose to embrace the meaning of desire to achieve a particular end since I’m not one who really cares for rank, fame, or even power.

I know sounds like a lie, but honestly I don’t. Having more rank will mean more work. Having fame seems to be overrated from what I’ve seen in the news. And power…well, let’s just say that I would rather not have the responsibility of power over others.

But I can understand trying to achieve a particular end and I even understand the desire to work toward that end. After all we all do that in one way or another. The part that I have trouble with is keeping that ambition alive. And in honor of this I think a new meditation is in order.

“Ambition I need to grow and dream. Capricorn Dragon lend your strength to me. Teach me how to keep this ambition alive. Dragon of wealth keep my dreams alive in me.”

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