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Et teto toyam lith vyn nolas cepap mpae Esero nia que’tia seo.
There are things I must confess. Such as the love I hold close to myself. It can tear a person apart if I let it lose…and it can destroy everything I believe in this world if it was returned. ~wry grin~ I’m not surprised by this. I think I knew this all along. It is way I choose to hold people at bay…even those I proclaim to love.
In away this site is my Test.
Can I be honest?
Can I tell the truth of everything without the regret that is so ingrained in the mind?
Can I even be honest with myself?
Maybe…I doubt it.
My nature demands that there be some safe place where I can run when emotions/living/loving become too much. I’d like to say that this is true of most people I know…but the truth is most of those I know are better suited to this life than I am. They have the ability to accept and put themselves forward. Where I would rather not.
It is that simple. I would rather not.
I’m not brave nor am I a coward.
I just don’t see the reason for any…thing.
I won’t leave this life because I enjoy it too much. I won’t leave the memories I have because they give me strength. And I won’t leave the love I have because for once in a life-time I have it. ~wry grin~
~shrugs~ Life is more complicated than I explain at the moment. And yet I feel that it is much simpler than I would make it sound. ~laughs~